I haven't written in a long, long time! I didn't feel like I had much to offer. But today I do. Today I offer you hope.
I have been playing with something I have always known but haven't fully anchored in myself.
It is this; THE UNIVERSE HAS OUR BACK!
So, if the universe has our back then what does that mean to you? If you really believed that the universe has your back-how much more ease would you have in your life?
Money is my challenge and not the lack of money. To be more precise it is handling money and how I feel about it. It is the handling of sums that others would wish they could and others would wonder what the big deal was about.
I know that each of us has chosen to be on this planet at this point in time.
I know that we are here to experience aspects of life and by the doing of that we are expanding the universe through our remembering.
You don't have to believe that but you might want to consider it and all that it implies. Look back on your life and can you say that everything always worked out? I am talking the bigger picture here-not the details and not how you wanted it to work out, but the fact that you are here reading these words and you are alive. You are apparently not finished yet!
So money has been my main challenge-not enough of it-enough of it-more than enough and then less because of circumstances that involve the CRA and regulations around self employed or employee. Believe me when I say-it isn't fun.
Now, the thing is that my husband is very good at what he does (even though he questions that because that is his main challenge) and because of that we have a nice lifestyle. However, through decisions that we made and decisions that we didn't we found ourselves in a bit of a pickle.
ARGGGG!! I thought we were done with this! So we are faced with paying a rather large amount that might have you cringing or not. It is all perspective. When you have money in the bank to pay things and money coming in it isn't a big deal. It becomes a big deal when the money you need isn't immediately apparent.
So I made the choice to remind myself that THE UNIVERSE HAS MY BACK!
I may not know exactly how it will work out but when I look back on my life it always has. You would think that brings me comfort. Some days it does and other days I am like the millions of people out there who are struggling with fear of not enough, whether it isn't enough money, love or health.
I have felt myself contract with anxiety. I remind myself to breathe. I remind myself THE UNIVERSE HAS MY BACK!
A few months ago I said to my husband that we hadn't come this far to have it all fall apart now. Everything has always worked out.
Like you I want to know how it will work out and when it will work out. There is no immediate answer. I must trust. Meanwhile I choose to move forward and do the best that I can. I pay as much as we can immediately. I make plans on how I might pay the rest. We have ways but they are not my favourite options. I give thanks that we have options. Many do not.
This morning my husband, who is very good at what he does, called to tell me of his unexpectedly large commission cheque. You see he didn't think that it was going as well as it was. He got to see how very good he is and we got more money to pay CRA. Whew!!
All I had to do was play with the energies surrounding THE UNIVERSE HAS MY BACK and if that is true and all of my history shows that it is-then I simply have to relax in life, take inspired action, choose my thoughts in order to find a way to feel better and along the way things unfold in ways I hadn't fully considered possible.
It is the ride of a lifetime, playing on planet earth. It goes up and down, it turns us up and around and yet in all of it, somehow everything always works out. Everyone's "working out" is different because of your expectations and your ability to believe that you are worth having a good life.
Do you believe that? And if you don't believe that maybe you should get a hold of me for a session or two or three :)
So I have no idea what else is in front of me but I do know that when I relax into my life that magic happens. Whew!
I am still here and so are you. We must have a lot more things to experience yet-are you ready?
I know I am!
Going For My Joy